Elemental Emptiness Month 4: Compassion pt 1
1-15-09 I’ve spent the entire day sitting with several patterns of behavior which I’ve identified as behaviors where I’m engaged in dysfunctional behavior. One example is that while I think it is good to recognize qualities you want in a partner, taken to an extreme this can be its own form of objectification. Have I [...]
Connecting to my shadow self
Tonight I was taken on a pathworking to find some resources to help me work with my emptiness. Throughout this pathworking I used the Taoist water breathing meditation, which helped put me in a deep head space. The priestess who took me on this journey is someone I trust, who really knows her stuff and [...]
Demons and social responsibility follow up
I’ve continued working with the five step process detailed in Feeding Your Demons. It’s proven very helpful so far when I’ve had insecurities come up. It serves as an excellent complement to my Taoist breathing practices which are also focused on the dissolution of blockages. One issue that this process has helped me recognize is [...]
An experiment with Fasting
I just finished reading Tai Chi Dynamics (see below for the review) and in it he included a chapter on Fasting and how to do it properly. I decided to give it a try today and so far it’s been interesting to experience. He notes that a person can be a bit more temperamental, which [...]
Learning not to struggle with my demons
Since starting to read Tsultrim Allione’s book, Feeding Your Demons, I’ve been re-learning something I’ve learned before, but from a Taoist perspective in Relaxing into your Being: Breathing, Chi, and Dissolving the Ego, by B. K. Frantzis. From the Taoist perspective you use breathing and energy work to dissolve blockages. With Tsultrim’s work, you embody [...]
Feeding a Demon
I recently started reading Tsutrim Allione’s Feeding Your Demons, which presents a technique based on the Tibetan Chod ritual, where you find and locate your internal demons, stresses, etc., and you personify them and then feed them what they need, as opposed to what they want. She makes a critical distinction between want and need, [...]
The Emptiness Working Month 3: Rage
Dec 17 We’ve just moved into the new place and I have online connection again. The last half week has been hard. We got moved out quickly and right after it snowed in Portland, which pretty much brings this city to a crashing halt. Mainly though, I’ve been dealing with rage, with anger, and this [...]
Researching the Emperor
Reprint of an article I wrote on doing internal work back in 2007. So I mentioned in the first month of the emptiness working that one entity that I ended up working with was The Emperor or Darth Sidious. He’s an excellent embodiment of the negative emotions associated with emptiness. Tonight, a friend had linked [...]
Some thoughts on attachment, hope, and fear
I’ve been re-reading Pema Chodron’s When Things Fall Apart, and while I’m chonicling most of what I’m getting out of reading this book in my entry for the emptiness work, I read a passage that I thought I might share now: For those who want something to hold on to, life is even more inconvenient. [...]
The Emptiness Working Month 2: Obsession
I was watching the movie Aviator recently. It’s a bio film about Howard Hughes. Watching that film is always fascinating to me, because it displays the life of someone who was clearly innovative and inventive and yet also suffered from a mental affliction, OCD. His attention to detail in his inventiveness was another sign of [...]
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- I finished the latest revision of Magical Identity, at 93,535 words. Off to the editor and then layout! Expect a pre-order post soon.
