Letting Go
Kat and I came back from Pantheacon to one of our cats dying. It’s certainly not the homecoming experience we expected to have, and we’ve been grieving as we’ve also been getting him ready for his next journey. Something we’ve both said to him is that it’s ok for him to move on. And we [...]
Why therapy needs to complement internal work
I’ve been starting to do some internal work on an issue that was brought to my attention by my significant other. I also decided to book an appointment with my therapist. Back when I was doing the Emptiness working, my ex told me near the beginning of it that she needed me to go see [...]
The hand-parting
On Sunday, my ex-wife Lupa and I did our hand-parting. We’ve ended the marriage in a very amicable way and are still friends. In fact, we both recognize that we make great friends, but lousy spouses. Since the hand-parting happened, I’ve noticed a definite shift in my sense of identity, as well as on an [...]
She came to me
She came to me tonight as I was being massaged and said, “I would have an audience with you tonight.” I said I’d prefer if this audience occurred when I was alone, for since this was part of my emptiness work, that needed to be part of it. She smiled and said, “I’ll get you [...]
The connection between internal work and external reality
Today I got to meet Paul Levy, who kindly enough gave me a copy of his book The Madness of George W. Bush: A Reflection of our collective psychosis. It was a real pleasure to meet Paul…it’s clear we are on similar journeys of internal exploration and change. His work with the concept of the [...]
Disillusionment: A different take
I was listening to an episode of Catnip Brew, a podcast that I just found tonight. One of the episodes was about apathy and disillusionment in the pagan culture. Now, as it so happens, the most read post on the blog, at this point, is the post I wrote about my own disillusionment about the [...]
Elemental Love Work Month Ten
I have two more months left to the elemental love working. It kind of amazes me that in such a short, but also long time, my yearlong working with babalon and the element of love will be receding into the background to make way for the next element to be worked with. This month has [...]
Ethics and the Development of Will
“The Will” is an important component of Western Magic, if often ill-defined in practice and discussion. I have defined it as a personal coherence, wherein ones self is so unified that its directives and activities produce clear results – be that in magic or other activities. I consider it essentially the same as “Te” in [...]
Enlightenment does not take you off the hook!
Sometimes people have funny definitions of enlightenment, as in if I’m enlightened I can do no more wrong. I’ve never thought of enlightenment as that. Rather to me is it: Once you are aware, i.e. enlightened, you can no longer use ignorance to excuse your actions. You have to take full responsibility. In Psychology without [...]
The Path is Hard
I’m reading The Fulfilments of Fate and Desire by Storm Constantine now, for my pleasure reading, but also to get reacquainted with a magical system I work in, called Dehara. There’s a lot of magic in the books themselves, but continuing to develop a magical system around those books is something I’ve felt called to [...]
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- I finished the latest revision of Magical Identity, at 93,535 words. Off to the editor and then layout! Expect a pre-order post soon.
